Grudge

I don't hold grudges.

or rather,

Grudges don't hold me.

Be ruthless

Desire doesn't just speak of the void.

Desire is the void

Eliminate desire

for all that doesn't matter.

Grown Up

Why would you act 'grown up'

grown ups don't have any growing

left to do.

Whatever people tell you,

growing, your way, 

is your right and your duty

to yourself.

The places where I am loved

There are these places

where I am loved;

they rise,

like thermal currents

on which I glide.

I may never

come down.

I am the one who knocks

Don't think of me a sheep

it's only sheep's clothing

Don't think of me too sensitive

'reflective' does not mean soft

I'm ready for this jelly, because

I am the one who knocks.

Sped up

The faster we knew each other

The faster we knew what we wanted.

 I wish we didn't know,
just for a bit longer.

Ghosts

I'm not jealous

of your ghosts.

If you leave to

chase nostalgia,

if you stay to

forget memories.

Come to me, 

your heart tangled,

our best days

are always ahead.

Dancing Atop Tower Bridge

Tonight,

as I write,

atop this monument is my dance floor.

a monumental farewell, to a London life,

so far spent,

dancing.

Peter means rock

I was strong

before we met,

and I'll be strong

long if you've left,

and if you stay

that's what I'll be

I'll be strong for you

and (what's more then that)

I'll.
 be.
 strong.
 for.
 me.

Demand more

You don't work this hard

to get to the middle,

You don't meditate on this

to become bourgeois,

You don't become consumed

to be another consumer.

This takes your nerve, your sinew and your heart

and therefore;

mediocrity

is not

on the cards.

"The last three or four reps

is what makes the muscle grow.

This area of pain divides the champion

from someone else who is not a champion.

That's what most people lack,

having the guts to go on and just say

they'll go through the pain

no matter what happens"

~Arnold Schwarzenegger

Night of Infinity

Blood pumping

music thumping

drinks coming

friends hugging

feet dancing

some romancing

lights fading

day breaking

"and I swear

in that moment

we

were

infinite."

Fret not

Try not to fret

that cats fight dogs

that flies curse frogs

that men lose bets

or lose cooler heads, that

some wounds don't mend,

that perfect moments end.

Under pass

There is a young homeless couple that sleeps

Below a busy junction, in an under pass, 

They're just cooing and stirring

As I walk past.

It could be their twisted honeymoon

Defying all else that seems to over-loom,

I happen to walk by as he strokes her face

Last night's inebriation now in its clanging phase, 

As most walk by not even changing pace

This world, this surreality is such a bitter-sweet place.

We're in this together

To get where I am today,
I once risked everything I had.

Love me 

at your risk

and mine.

Bryan David Atkins

This is the last photo I took 

of the greatest man I knew.

Bryan David Atkins

Hands like great towels

he'd tousle my brow,

his legs were warm trees

for hugging, for climbing.

A man of few words,
an excellent gardener,
my guide to wonderment,

a true grand father.

Brick

I am trying to build

something

great.

But its greatness

is not in

mind.

Every new day, I lay a brick.

I will lay that brick

as perfectly as a brick can be laid,

I will die before I quit.

Action builds more

than mere ambition.

New Ground

Mastery requires consistent deliberate 

practice in new ground.

So it is new ground I'll find.