Believing in Meaning

Meaning can be found

in almost anything,

because meaning

is

here.

Heavy drinking

I drank in her body

like a fine wine,

But I drank in her mind

like water.

Slipping

I'm more excited

about you and me

than I might seem

because I know how

embarrassing it feels

to casually slip up when 

trying to smoothly

walk toward someone

with excitement.

Child of God

I've been missing God

in a way

since I forgot his name

or never caught it when he said it

I'm not sure

But I didn't know my mum's name

when I was a baby either

that didn't stop me crying for her

or giggling when she came.

Me Bike Back When

My bike wos stolen

when I were just ten

I remember now

'ow much it 'urt then

But maybe that bike

after it were took

provided a ride

for that there-a crook

and maybe 'e

then sold it on

and used that money

to buy a 'imself a song

a song that touched

'is heart so sad

and 'e learnt that 'e'd

rather not be so bad

and that me bike

the one which 'e sold

would 'elp some fella

speed through the cold

to buy some drugs

or some uther unkindly things

to escape the 'urt

that 'is emotions would bring

an after a run-in

with the old bill down the lane

thrown into prison

feelin' some shame

an' on 'is way 'ome

while ridin' me bike

the sun may come out

and that fella 'e might

just think to 'imself

eh up sonny jim

this bike weren't kosher

since it were nicked by terrible Tim,

so maybe I

should take it t' lost an found

then after that,

I might turn me life

around.

Anticipated Memories

These manufactured moments,

 anticipated memories,

microwaveable now-stalgia.

staged self solemnity.

This moment too has a frame,

you pick the reminiscent hue

you choose how to brand this day

like marketing the life you've made.

Its dealing with, its grieving with

the today that's almost gone,

a life story, with a vintage lilt

your story-board to talk upon.

Faintly dangerous

Did you know...

there's a chance,

a chance that something might happen here, 

something fateful, 

something faintly dangerous...

FOMO

I may not decide what I miss out on

But I can decide what I'm present for.

I'll not fear missing out on someone else's life

I'd rather fear missing out on the satisfaction of living mine.

New Perspectives

I'll not blink

I'll not close my eyes

Cos what I'm seeing right now

should last many life-times.

This menagerie of humanity

this plethora of plurality

this buffet for my eyes to see

it's developing, expanding me.

Do your thing

Do your thing

because if you don't

you'll end up

doing someone elses.

Treadmill

Today I just stay on this treadmill,
Tomorrow I study this test,
The day after that I'll have learnt a new skill
The future will take care of the rest.

A dreamer without discipline is just that,
Commitment will carry me there,
For I was designed to leave this world better,
If I just stay on this treadmill,
one more mile,
one more mile,
one more mile, I swear.