Daily gratitude

I'm grateful for me.

I'm greatful for my tenacity,

I'm grateful that despite it all, I know that I will rise, I will conquer, I will thrive.

I'm grateful for me.

I'm gateful for my family.

I"m grateful that there are people that care deeply, who'd be kind, who'd be wise, who'd empathize.

I'm grateful for me.

I'm grateful for the life I lead.

I'm grateful that I've been led here, with this mind, with these friends, and this career, 

for a reason.

Glad I Gave

 

I am glad I gave.

I gave my heart. My entire heart.

I gave everything I had.

I gave everything I became,

I gave everything I would become.

I'm glad I gave, even

if what I gave was lost.

Because,

giving is true to me.

Afternoon

I lay this afternoon
To feel time stretch out under me
To reacquaint with the sensation of it's passage across my body and ultimately through my fingers
To remind that this life does not just belong to time. It belongs to me

Intentions

We often judge others by their behaviour

but judge ourselves by our intentions

What if it was the other way around?

What I want

I have spent years

figuring out exactly what I want.

I now know what I want.

I just don't know if that exists

How long until I can answer that question?

If it did exist, would it want me?

Who are you?

"Who are you?", says the world.
"What do you want from me,
when you could do anything.
You could be anyone, be with anyone
You can build, or party, or laze away these days.
Who are you? and what do you want from me?"

Love Yourself First

 I,
Take me,
To be my partner,
To have and to hold from this day forward,
for better, for worse,
for richer, for poorer,
in sickness and in health,
to love and to cherish,
until parted by death.
This is my solemn vow.

Love is

Love is
Forgiving yourself for making mistakes
Love is
Allowing yourself to laze in your skin
Love is
Not comparing yourself to others
Love is
Being kind to yourself when life is not
Love is
Pushing yourself to grow
Love is
Reminding yourself to be present
Love is
Loving yourself first so you can love others

Five Years Ago

Five years ago
I moved across the sea for a year
I’m still here

Four years ago
I broke ties and started again
I’m starting again

Three years ago
I introduced her to my family
I’m her family

Two years ago
I put life on hold to put it right
It’s wild and precious

On year ago
I was one year from marriage
We’re over the moon

Believing in Meaning

Meaning can be found

in almost anything,

because meaning

is

here.

Heavy drinking

I drank in her body

like a fine wine,

But I drank in her mind

like water.

Slipping

I'm more excited

about you and me

than I might seem

because I know how

embarrassing it feels

to casually slip up when 

trying to smoothly

walk toward someone

with excitement.

Child of God

I've been missing God

in a way

since I forgot his name

or never caught it when he said it

I'm not sure

But I didn't know my mum's name

when I was a baby either

that didn't stop me crying for her

or giggling when she came.

Me Bike Back When

My bike wos stolen

when I were just ten

I remember now

'ow much it 'urt then

But maybe that bike

after it were took

provided a ride

for that there-a crook

and maybe 'e

then sold it on

and used that money

to buy a 'imself a song

a song that touched

'is heart so sad

and 'e learnt that 'e'd

rather not be so bad

and that me bike

the one which 'e sold

would 'elp some fella

speed through the cold

to buy some drugs

or some uther unkindly things

to escape the 'urt

that 'is emotions would bring

an after a run-in

with the old bill down the lane

thrown into prison

feelin' some shame

an' on 'is way 'ome

while ridin' me bike

the sun may come out

and that fella 'e might

just think to 'imself

eh up sonny jim

this bike weren't kosher

since it were nicked by terrible Tim,

so maybe I

should take it t' lost an found

then after that,

I might turn me life

around.

Anticipated Memories

These manufactured moments,

 anticipated memories,

microwaveable now-stalgia.

staged self solemnity.

This moment too has a frame,

you pick the reminiscent hue

you choose how to brand this day

like marketing the life you've made.

Its dealing with, its grieving with

the today that's almost gone,

a life story, with a vintage lilt

your story-board to talk upon.

Faintly dangerous

Did you know...

there's a chance,

a chance that something might happen here, 

something fateful, 

something faintly dangerous...

FOMO

I may not decide what I miss out on

But I can decide what I'm present for.

I'll not fear missing out on someone else's life

I'd rather fear missing out on the satisfaction of living mine.

New Perspectives

I'll not blink

I'll not close my eyes

Cos what I'm seeing right now

should last many life-times.

This menagerie of humanity

this plethora of plurality

this buffet for my eyes to see

it's developing, expanding me.

Do your thing

Do your thing

because if you don't

you'll end up

doing someone elses.

Treadmill

Today I just stay on this treadmill,
Tomorrow I study this test,
The day after that I'll have learnt a new skill
The future will take care of the rest.

A dreamer without discipline is just that,
Commitment will carry me there,
For I was designed to leave this world better,
If I just stay on this treadmill,
one more mile,
one more mile,
one more mile, I swear.